Julien has been a mess! I feel as if I have been covered in boogers 24/7. My ear drums are blown out from the constant mommy mommy. And my emotions are all over the place. The hulk is coming out of him in more ways then one, with those higher numbers and ketones comes one angry baby, your making me angry!!! You won't like me when I'm angry!! Well that part isn't true but he is being quiet mean!
I am having a sort of emotional battle in my head with why him since his diagnoses back in September , I've read this is called "diabetes rage" lol perfect . Now that my baby is sick and seeing how miserable he is makes me so much more bitter. Being that he is baby number three , before he got T1 he got the whole chicken nugget , no need to cut that in itty bitty pieces, no need to be careful with germs either give that snot faced baby a hug ! Not anymore, my lax days are over , not with the nugget - he'll be fine ha! But germs they are my arch enemy now. I can't say eh it will build his immune system. Now I have to be super cautious and hope everyone around me and in our lives will do the same. Because what sniffles are to a non d kid could mean hospitalization to mine. Just looking at his sad face now makes me incredibly sad.
Yet in between the high blood sugars and the terrifying ketones, coughs and boogies, he still finds time to make me look at him in awe. How incredible he is that through the 20 pokes in his blood stained finger tips he powers through it all like a champ ! Strongest baby ever!
